A few days ago, I told my child's teacher after I completely spaced the parent-teacher conference we had scheduled, "I used to have my shit together, and then I became a parent. But I guess 6 years in to this parenting run, I suppose I can no longer claim my new normal is temporary." She didn't know me in my pre-parenting days, when I really was on time to things, and even occasionally organized. A time when I could string thoughts coherently, er, string coherent thoughts togetherly. While I … [Read more...] about Balancing my current work with my future work goals
Well hello there, old friend. It's been awhile, hasn't it? Rather than bore you with all the nitty-gritty of what has (and has not) transpired over the past 2 years, let me just summarize with: I've been dealing with stuff. And things. Losses, deaths, work, parenting, beaches, music, and whatnot. There, you're all caught up. Don't you feel better? I know I do! I won't get all gross on you and go into my goal for this particular year or talk about how life is so much better now that … [Read more...] about reset
Yesterday I was lamenting about the difficulty of making new friends at work (among other things). Here's a perfect example. I have a coworker who I've often thought should be friends with me. So I followed what I think to be normal make-a-friend protocol: I introduced myself first, I have since chatted with her from time to time, sometimes at great length, I've IM'd her, and discovered tons that we have in common. We're both from the South, she used to work in the same field as My Better Half … [Read more...] about Good friends are hard to find
Well, well, well. Here we go again. A new year, the same resolution to blog more. I should know better, especially given the 2012 experiment, but clearly I just get older, not wiser. I could take a glass half empty approach as to why I didn't blog more in 2012. Let's see: it started with a 6 month old who got RSV, which then morphed into me having sinus infection after sinus infection and strep throat after strep throat for months on end (up to and including this very moment in 2013) and … [Read more...] about Try, try again
I don't know. I haven't actually *been* anywhere. Didn't go away since May for the summer. Or anywhere, really. I've just been working sitting at a desk in my cubicle. And getting sick. Repeat. I've been on 6 antibiotics since the spring, but I'm still fighting a chronic awful sinus infection (and periodic bouts of strep throat) that make me feel lousy. Just not lousy enough to stay home, but lousy enough to not be able to keep up with all my normal routines. Between working full-time sitting … [Read more...] about Where Have I Been?
Earlier I posted about how I haven't been writing because I'm just so damn worn out. And while I try not to be too hard on myself about that, that itself is…well, hard. I mean, all it takes is one sideways glance at my feeds to see that they are clogged with new blog posts, updates, follow-ups, and news items that get updated by the hour moment to prove that only I’m to blame when I find myself staring at a blank screen. Obviously I’m not creative enough. Or the ideas I have are bad and not … [Read more...] about At Least I’m Not the Only One Uninspired
I'm sitting here staring at my monitor ready to write a post. Why? Not because I have anything to say but because I have, for the 1st time today, 20 minutes or so to myself before I collapse in exhaustion. Between working a full-time job and taking care of a 10 month old without a single full night of sleep in more than 10 months, I feel drained. Creatively. And physically. Spent, in every way. The time to write & the moments of inspiration just do not coincide. And when I do have time, … [Read more...] about Uninspired. Or just plain tired.
It's been forever since I was here. 26 days to be exact. In part because I have been alternating between sick and swamped at work, leaving me neither the time nor the energy to sit down in front of a computer at home. But mostly because in the moments I did find the time to write, I found I didn't have anything to say. I was spent. You can't force inspiration. It just doesn't work that way. You can't sit down, put on your inspiration cap, and tell yourself "Time to write....now what are we … [Read more...] about long time, no write
Today is the 6th birthday of my little blog. I can't believe it's actually been six years. Sure, it came off the tracks a lot during those six years. When Funky-Ass Monkey wasn't online, it was because I was grappling with being overworked, an all-time low of energy thanks to Hashimoto's hypothyroidism, and all manner of other things. Things like blog identity crisis. All I blogged about early on was how much life in PHX sucked. Well, that, and how museum work is was awful. Things that are still … [Read more...] about FAM Turns 6!
I haven't had much to post lately. Actually, that's not true. I have lots to say. It's like thoughts and ideas and posts are just spilling out of me so fast I can't get them down to paper computer monitor before they float downstream. I have half-baked scraps of posts strewn all over the place. Shards of ramblings that I need to fully develop into posts before I can publish but I just can't seem to get my act together. Sure, I've been home from work with a sick 7 month old for almost 2 weeks … [Read more...] about Tongue Tied