Normally, at the start of each new year, I print out a fresh set of calendar pages and populate the days ahead with what's known. School closures & breaks, gymnastics, appointments, and so on. This year....we don't have anything to write down. I spent a lot of the day stewing over where we could go. What if we could go to Hawaii? When would we aim for? Would June be too soon? What if we aimed for next fall break? But that seems so far off. Where could we go in the meantime? Something we … [Read more...] about January Micro-goal: A Snow Day
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Resolutions, 2021
While I don't make a concerted effort to make a New Year's resolution, I also don't try not to make one either. If one comes to me, fantastic. One did last year, and I more or less stuck to it, or was at least mindful of it when I remembered it, which seemed pretty often. If one doesn't come to me, like this year....no big deal. This year, for 2021, nothing has struck me yet, and I'm not trying to force one to surface, either. So for now: no resolutions for 2021. We do have a running "once … [Read more...] about Resolutions, 2021
Rants & Raves, 2020 edition
Looking back on this crazy-ass year, here are the things big and small that make my end-of-year list for 2020. Rants COVID-19, duh. Just a total, complete clusterfuck. drumpf, the orange racist misogynistic shitgibbon. He can't GTFOOH soon enough. my state's inept governor. Turns out a global pandemic reveals just how much we are at the mercy of ~local~ and ~state~ leaders and policies, not just federal ones. the collapse of school in spring 2020. It was like our (and everyone … [Read more...] about Rants & Raves, 2020 edition
A Bad Dream
"Mommy, did you have a bad dream?" I don't really know how to answer since she's only 4, and my crying woke her up. To her, a bad dream is the only explanation. So I tell her yes, and it's just a dream and to go back to sleep. What's funny, like funny in the odd sense and not the ha-ha sense, is that in a way, she's exactly right. I am struggling with my dreams. As in how to make them happen. I always struggle at New Years. For some reason I find myself standing at the starting line for each … [Read more...] about A Bad Dream