Today's my birthday. For whatever reason, I often struggle around my birthday. It triggers an annual depression, which boils down to feelings of: I haven't done "enough." Or "I'm not where I should be in life." This year, those feelings are even more painful for me, because I've had some career bullshit that has been a wrecking ball to my ego. On top of that, my parentified childhood means that I get intrusive and cyclical and DEEP sadness leading up to and just after my birthday, mourning … [Read more...] about a literal sh*t storm
unfiltered thoughts: reality tv in 2020 edition
Things I wonder: has reality tv ALWAYS been this god-awful? Or has my taste evolved*? * Evolution is relative, coming from someone who makes a sport out of watching and judging selected Housewives, as well as all Southern Charm and VPR bravolebrities and 90 Day Fiance... But either they've all unequivocally tanked in, er, "quality" or my standards have somehow been raised. … [Read more...] about unfiltered thoughts: reality tv in 2020 edition
fully middle aged
Recently, as in last fall, I logged in to my son's health care portal because my pediatrician wasn't getting any records from a specialist. To say it's my son's health portal is silly, because he's six. So I have to log in as me, and then navigate to him, as he is a child record attached to the electronic me. Anyway, when I logged in, I got presented by the generic profile page, with a gray silhouette placeholder avatar, my sex, my date of birth, and my age. 43. Mathematically, that's … [Read more...] about fully middle aged
Autumn is…when, again?
Weird thing about living in PHX is that it remains so hot here well after summer that my brain gets real confused. I keep finding myself thinking things like "I'll do that after Labor Day." Like: I'll start cleaning out the garage after Labor Day. Or I'll start working on working on my yard again after Labor Day. Or I'll look into a fall trip with the kids after Labor Day. Or I'll start planning my son's September birthday after Labor Day. Obviously, dear reader, you know it's well after … [Read more...] about Autumn is…when, again?
monkey of the day: roller-skating chimp edition
I have just learned that Stanley Kubrick was a photojournalist before he was a filmmaker and oh, who gives a flying fudge. Just. look. at. this. … [Read more...] about monkey of the day: roller-skating chimp edition